the faith of a mustard seed

that's all i need. i know that because i met jesus in the fabric store tonight. he came to me in the form of a woman with a very lazy left eye, that i first noticed because of her high pitched voice. it all started when i saw fat quarters "on sale". "how much are the 'sale' fat quarters?" i asked. "let me go find out." she chirped in the high pitched voice i first heard when i walked back to my mother ship. (the quilting fabrics section of any store is my mecca.) then she found me after i had had some time to meander through the bolts. *sigh* i love fabrics. when she found me i had 4 more fabrics in my hand, each with different sale stickers on them. she told me that one that was super cute was 60% off the $3.99 sticker. HELLO! there just went my $10 limit i promised paul. but he understands. addictions can't be addictions without enablers right? so me and jesus in the form of a woman with a lazy eye walked up to the cutting counter making chit-chat as i do with all strangers because they all are potential friends. she asked what i was making and for some reason my honesty switch flipped. damn switch, i try to reserve it only for occassions involving 2 or more glasses of wine. but there it was, my response: "my 14th quilt. i make baby quilts for all the babies in our family but at 4 babies a year i decided to stop and make a baby quilt for my baby that i'm not pregnant with yet." what did i just say? oh yes. that's exactly what i said. and she said "well, that's a very good blessing to speak over yourself!" and i looked at her like-she's speaking my language. she then said "are you a believer in the messiah?" "yes." "well He spoke the world into existance and you are doing the right thing to speak that blessing over you." at which point i teared up. right there at the hancock fabrics cutting counter. i can't help it, OR blame it on the clomid. it was just one of those moments. so there it was that i met jesus and realized all i need is the faith of a mustard seed. please god please oh please oh please let this month work out. for those of you that asked, this is a picture of my 'stache or stash. and i added 9 more fabrics tonight for just $12!! ooooo i love fabric.

here's a picture of the eye on the upswing. i tried to take a better picture but she promptly fell asleep after this first picture.

and here's a picture of salty bread from safeway. if you haven't had it, you need to try it. it's so good it made it on the blog.