Friday, August 22, 2008
just the fax
i just have a minute because i have to get back to work but...i'm so freaking bummed. i went in for my ultrasound and the technician said "has anyone talked to you about PCOS yet?" "um...no" "well the probably would have found it in your blood work. an ultrasound is not the only sign so..i'm sure it would have been caught." "will you bring it up to the doctor?" "well, they would have done the test in the thyroid/glucose test. did you know you have a complex cyst on your left ovary?" "yes, they discovered that last spring. it's been there for a while now." "hmm...that's another sign of PCOS. but i'm sure they would have found it in your blood work" at this point i'm thinking to myself "hmm...i don't think she was supposed to have said that part about the PCOS." we finished up, i raced to loveland for my class and called the nurse on lunch. my test showed i only had 4 follicles getting ready. i don't know if this is a good or bad number. but she said "only" so it leads me to believe don't get your hopes up. she also said that if i haven't gotten my surge (which tells me that i am about to ovulate) by tuesday i'll go back in next wednesday and have a trigger. which is what they give you to force your body to let the people go. or eggs. but it sounds funnier to say let the people go. tangent. sorry. she also said "i'm not surprised you haven't surged yet because your estrogen was really low on day 10. ?? what does this mean?? i got too much information too fast again to think to ask but i'm wondering the ramifications of too much estrogen. so i'm discouraged at two things: 1) once. just ONCE i'd like to go to the doctor with no surprises. no "by the way, this is also going on" no "i didn't mention it before because i didn't want you to worry" no "i'm sure it's not a big deal or they would have mentioned it". i'd like to go in with certain expectations, which may or may not be too high, and have them met. no more no less. 2) i was really wanting to have the trigger today so i could have the IUI over the weekend and be well on my way to 2ww. (which in fertility lingo means 2 weeks waiting...the dreaded two weeks between ovulating and being able to POAS...pee on a stick...and find out if your pregnant.) so i'm sort of double bummed but i'm going to go make some pizza dough so that tonight after happy hour we can have some yummy homemade pizza. and i'm trying not to cry.
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Sweetie,
Try not to worry. If it's starting to look like PCOS, that could actually be a good thing. PCOS is something you can work with. It would explain a bit about your non-regular cycles. And it would mean my anti-sugar suggestions might actually help you. If your estrogen was low on day 10, or whatever, that doesn't mean you're not going to ovulate, it just means you're not ready yet. It's annoying to have to wait longer, but it's not hopeless. And it's fine if they need to give you some medicine to let your people go already. Four follicles is probably not a super great amount, if you were going to release that egg tomorrow, but maybe more are still developing. With PCOS, if that's what you're dealing with, it just means your body is confused about how to handle insulin, so it gets in the way of the hormones that tell you to release the eggs. PLEASE DON'T WORRY. Your doctor can handle all this stuff. PCOS does make it harder for women to get pregnant the old-fashioned way, but you already have doctors involved who have seen this a million times and know exactly what to do to work around it. The ultrasounds and bloodwork tell them everything they need to know. It's going to be OK, so please don't worry. I mean, of course you're going to worry, but I really don't think you need to worry any EXTRA because of this news. Seriously, the worst possible thing they can say is "We have no idea why you're not getting pregnant," because then they don't know what to do about it. If it's PCOS, which tons of women have, they can say "aha! We know just what to do." Hugs and more hugs to you, my dear. It'll be OK.
oh cheri'!! so sorry. even if it turns out to be nothing that kind of communication at the doctor's is so not helpful. and just totally adds to the stress. does this mean they will test for pcos now?? or not?? i am still sticking to my commitment and not calling you to ask you about this BUT pls pls call me if you want to talk.
Yeah, and all that rachell said...I knew yeah, yeah, that's it. I knew all that stuff. Remember me saying it just that way? Huh, Cheri, huh???
Good grief, 30+ years ago I don't think anyone knew so much!
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