i get to see my girls!!!!

i talked to the kids' mom tonight. and she let me talk to the kids and even little brother asked to talk to me! she loves me. yeay!!! and i'm fine with that because i love her too and i can't explain it. how do you explain loving a woman whose kids you took care of when they were at their worst because the state says she's not capable of doing it? i don't know. i think it's a god thing. but i hug them and tell them i love them even if it might freak them out. i feel like if this is my ONLY chance for them to see god i want them to see all of him. then every other chance i get after that is just a bonus. but i called tonight and they were clearly screening their calls because they called me back minutes later. but they called me back! so i was excited. i'm still cleaning up the pieces. but i get to see them wednesday to take them some stuff they left. i'll find any excuse to go see them. "ooo-i found a lint ball of older's...i'm pretty sure she wants it."
but i am already buying stuff for our next placement and i'm going young boys for the next one. tonight i got some sponge bob square pants soap dispenser and a garfield soap dispenser. the other day i got little people toothbrushes. and when i was garage saling i got some good abc books and stuff for younger people.
i'm glad they got to go home but i'm SO GLAD i get to see them wednesday!