back in the saddle

ok. here goes. one more time.
i realize that with this whole trying to make a baby thing i give things a whirl for all of 3 days (as gina puts it) and if it doesn't work i move on. very true. i tend to go big the first time or don't go at all and while i know this about myself i still do it. after sending the girls home i realize making a baby should be easy. and i'm not ready to give up. i will still want to continue being a foster mom. i love giving to kids, and embracing families that need it. we all need a little help at some point, right? anyway. monday night i'm going to see an accupuncturist. i know she's going to change my diet, not let me eat so much sugar, cut out the cold drinks and no fudging on the no dairy stuff. sure we don't drink milk. we make our own soy/rice milk ice cream. don't really eat cheese. but i still do margarine. and every now and then yogurt. my biggest downfall is a carmel or mocha frapaccino with no whip. it's my kriptonite. but i'm ready to make some changes. i called molly and we chatted for a bit and she told me she has one client that has been trying for 7 months but other than that everyone else is pregnant. except the ones that quit but she doesn't count those. so i REALLY don't want to turn into one of the ones that quits. so here goes nothing. again-please don't ask if i'm pregnant. i'll let you know when i am. do you think a blogger is REALLY going to be able to keep that kind of secret for long?
pray it works. and pray that i can stay away from the frapaccinos. although i usually only have 2 or 3 a month, that in itself will be work.