debbie downer

yesterday was a down day. i don't really have any reason why it was.
well, that's not entirely true. a couple little things that should make me feel very excited and happy kind of made me feel sad and left behind. and by kind of i mean very much so.
*sigh* why? i already had moved on. i was already beyond all of this and calling it my last chapter. i guess no matter how much i move on, i'll always feel the hole of the what could have been if _____ happened. i'm not sure how to get over that part. or if you ever do get over that part.