Wednesday, February 4, 2009

this is weird

soooo.....this has been starring at me all week.we bought it on sunday. i know, i haven't said anything. it's just too weird and feels too fast. it converts to a toddler bed, day bed or a full size headboard. we got it off of craigslist for a steal. now we just need the mattress and bedding. and then we need to get bunk beds or something just in case we end up with 2 older kids. we were setting it up and i had a panic this-is-not-fair-moment again. i realized normally this is done with a big round pregnant belly. and normally you have all kinds of gifts from baby showers. and normally you're not sure where to put all the family when they fly in to help you take care of the new baby. except that our new baby might be 7 years old and might go home in a couple weeks or 9 months. it's ok. i can get over it. but it does still make me sad from time to time that we won't get to do it "the normal way". and i'll never get a baby shower.
but we had a good talk the other night about how paul feels about it all. i want to make sure i'm not dragging him into anything. he said he always knew my heart for orphans and knew that it was always in my long term plans. we just didn't think it would be now.

5 comments:

All Girls 1337 said...

i had all those same feelings...and when we got our first baby placement...we had a shower! have one! you are just as worthy of it and people will love to show you that they care about you and what you are doing! it does get easier...and, the feelings will sneak up on you from time to time...just ride them out, they will pass...you are getting ready to ride a huge adventure!

Elizabeth Angelo said...

who says you don't get a shower?? :) i think we should have one for you!

Valerie Bowman said...

This IS cause for celebration and you should TOTALLY have a shower! Shower it up!

Anonymous said...

Showers are overrated anyway...You can always have an foster shower. I love reading your blog...I am doing some cleaning out of our garage and basement also. Its amazing how much stuff you have vs. how much you need. TTFN!
Joy

Kristin said...

Wow, Cheri and Paul, this is so exciting. Thanks for sharing the journey! We miss you guys, but everyone is very happy for you when I tell them of your progress! I'm so not even close to the adoption idea, but our journey is ours and yours is yours. Isn't God good? Take care!