this weeks developments

ok...i'm ready to talk about it. i've realized it takes me a few days to process before i'm ready.
this week was sweet pea's review. it was tough. i was there, along with her birth parents, her case worker, my case worker, her G.A.L., her mom's G.A.L., a state auditor, and our casa. it was intense. nobody told me that i was going to have to talk and i didn't know how much or how little to say. and i'm sitting there telling the auditor how she reacts to visits and such and her dad is at the other end of the table. it was just *sigh* tense! i felt really bad but i have to tell the facts and ONLY the facts because they are already in all the court reports. so i can't change the story now, ya know? so anyway...i figured out quite a few things this week that will change the case and i don't know what it means in terms of peanut and/or us. but time will tell and asking questions doesn't help. i just gotta be patient and wait and see what happens. i don't remember praying for patience. ever. well, once, but it was a mistake and i took it back right away-but maybe god doesn't do givesies takesies.

**sorry! people have called to tell me this post was vague. i'm still learning the lines of grey of what i can and cannot share in the foster world. basically though, the parents living situation and relationship has changed. i'm still trying to figure out how this will effect the living arrangements for peanut. i can't share too much....but i hope that information helps. SO sorry to be vague. i did not mean to do that.