not so fast

so last night was support group and i found out things aren't so cut and dried with our january court date. what will happen if things go to straight adoption, is that the family can contest it. and that there will be some time before termination of rights. and that the family could step forward then to do their home studies to adopt her themselves. and there is one aunt that really would be a good candidate. so *sigh* i gotta keep holding onto my heart for a little while longer. i'm not sure i can do this. i know i have to. i'm outed now by flatirons, but i'm still not sure i can do this. or go through it again.