do you ever get over adoption?

i know it's only been 5 months and 7 days since we finalized the kids' adoptions, but who's counting?
yesterday i had to explain that the kids are adopted twice. and both times i said "i don't know, we adopted!" but not in an eeyore kind of way, more like a tigger kind of way. once at immunizations and once again at a sleep study at children's hospital. hopefully the last time we will have to spend an overnight down there for a long time. forever, if i could chose.
every time i explain missing medical information and the fact that he's adopted i feel like i'm explaining how lightning struck us. not once, but twice. perfect, effervescent, life changing lightning strikes. i still can't get over how perfect they are. how perfect they are for us. how MUCH like us they are. not just in looks but goodness sakes karyssa couldn't be more like me if she had a handbook! i know what she's thinking before she does it. i know why she's reacting the way she's reacting. i know what each and every look and glare and giggle means. i love every fiber of her being. and asher...my son whose name means "he makes his mother happy" could not live up to his name any farther. he has brought our family to completion. as i laid in bed watching him last night i just can't help but think how lucky i am to be his mom. then when he couldn't sleep and the sleep study nurse decided to put us in a bed together and we got to snuggle together for the rest of the night. i loved it! the nurse didn't. at 2am she came in and told us if he didn't fall asleep soon there wouldn't be time to get enough data for the study and we'd have to redo it. i keep thinking that maybe tomorrow i'll get over it. it'll be nothing to me. sure, they're adopted, what of it? but so far it hasn't happened. i wake up and think they're adopted! they're mine forever and ever. they'll never be rid of me no matter how hard they try. they're tethered to me and i to them, and i'll never get over it!

here's a couple pictures from the sleep study. it was not easy to get all those plugs on his head but it was even worse getting them back off this morning. his hair is about a day from dreads with all that goop in it.