double kids=quadruple work!!

sorry i haven't blogged in a long while. i can explain 23 days of it.
we got a placement call and i called back just to say "sorry, we can't because we don't have a big enough house." they quickly shot that down so i came back with "we don't have a big enough car for 4 carseats." (yes-the two they wanted us to take were in carseats plus our two in carseats equals 4 carseats in a honda civic. i don't think so.) they offered to get us a van. i asked "seriously?!?" that's when it hit me. they wouldn't have called me if they weren't serious. and i quickly learned a very hard lesson....that lesson then took an additional 23 days to pound into my head: never EVER say "maybe" to a case worker.
i called paul, he said he didn't mind. as long as we weren't a long term option i told them we could do it for a couple days while they find a long term foster home. a couple days came and went. a week came and went. 13 days came and went. we found a family. we visited with them. they were amazing. had an amazing house. amazing playroom. amazing bedroom setup. sort of. long story.
theeeeeen the woman started asking me strange questions about the kids. and she kept commenting how they looked more like me and paul than her family. then she asked me if diarrhea was a mexican thing. *record scratch* what the hell? then i started adding up all of the other comments she had made to me. and i realized we had a problem. a big problem. i called my case worker, knowing full well if i put the brakes on it would mean we would have the kids for a couple more days. [cue laugh track]
well, we had them for a couple more days for sure. 23 days in all before we were able to transition them to their (hopefully) forever home. they are with an amazing couple that has no other kids. which means they will be pouring in tons and TONS of love. which is exactly what they need.
all in all 4 kids 2 and under was hard. MUCH harder than i ever imagined. but if i had it all to do over again i would do it in a heartbeat for those boys. they were amazing. i loved having them here. in a different way than i love karyssa and asher, but love nonetheless. we're up for recertification and we're having a hard time deciding what we want our role to be with the county. we love our kids. we are perfectly happy if they are it forever and ever. we kind of hope they are...but if they came up with another sibling we'd do it. just not sure we want to start with another birth family. see post below.
that being said, i think we've celebrated being a family of four again about 3 times since the boys moved.