more on plopping us on our faces

well today i went to register the girls for school but found out it takes 48 hours after turning in the paperwork. so....i called paul. he figured out he can work one afternoon and one morning and i can work the opposite. so i called m'lady to find out and she asked (in a totally inconvenienced voice) if this was going to happen every time because with me doing 2 desks and everything that really puts everybody out and her husband's brother-in-law died this week so they are going to have to go down to that funeral on thursday and my co-workers are really put out by all of this. i told her i didn't know. it's all new for me too. so i might be let go. if you could pray for that and for peace of mind for me i could really use it. i hate to inconvenience m'lady. it must be so hard to know that i'm off taking care of a couple kids that had the most traumatic thing that will ever happen to them in their lives happen just 72 hours ago. must really put her out having to deal with all my baggage.

typical?

well today was another great day. we went to church and had some really insecure moments. church is a very foreign place but our church opened with aerosmith so hopefully their parents won't have too many issues with a church that has that for an opener. however, tonight i've already started to wonder if i turned our lives upside down and landed us on our heads. it's nothing the girls did at all. i just look at tatum and think "is she ok? does she feel like i forgot her or replaced her?" but really all i see is one exhuasted dog. she's laying between me and paul on the couch asleep as i type. at 4:30 i realized it was 4:30. at 6:00 i realized i still needed to go to the store for the weeks groceries. we needed to have bathtime and pick out our outfits for tomorrow. we needed to finish a photo album for their brother that we will get to see tomorrow for the first time since placement. both girls needed dinner, as did we. that means 2 orders, one vegan, one not. i'm going to make empenadas this week but i need 3 kinds...one with meat for us, one with no tomatos for our older buddy, one with no corn for our younger buddy. not only are we vegans, we are picky eaters. eek. tonight though i found a hit with rice warmed up with rice milk cold and cinamon on top. whew. we have been having a bowl of bedtime cereal and i'm not going to say no to food right now. not until i can figure out what is hunger and what is stalling. so far we've made it into bed on time 2 out of 3 nights. all is well that ends well right?

whoa nelly

this morning was a very different morning. we got up. took tatum to daycare. went and got donuts and sat at the donut shop to eat them. came home and both worked on our computers. then i went to work. paul was off because of good friday. and paul called me as soon as i got there. "you know the call we've been waiting for?" and i'm thinking "quest? comcast? american family?" and he goes "ya know-the respite care should have come first?" and it hit me. "they got kids?!" so we have 2 girls staying with us for a while. they are super great kids. very helpful. we'll have some bumpy roads, i know. but tonight was great and they are really just like any other kids. i already feel like i've known them forever. it's kinda weird. but they are vegans. so if anyone out there knows some good recipes i'm more than open. i don't think i've ever even tasted tofu more than once and now i gotta figure out how to manuver it into meals on a regular basis. eek!

delivery confirmation

well...i embroidered sophia's name on the quilt

and packaged it up


and took it to the post office and said "this is a quilt made from fabrics from the 70's from our grandmother that cannot be replaced...what's the best way to send it." we could send it priority mail for nothing shy of my right arm, or we could send it with delivery confirmation and it will get there Monday or Tuesday and we can track it as it goes. We chose the 2nd option for just $9. I realized why this quilt is so hard for me to let go of. Normally I hand deliver my quilts so I get to see the baby's reaction to them and this time I don't get to do that. So it makes it a little extra hard to part with. But now we can click here and cut and paste this number [03080730000008517343] and we can see where it is. Right now it says there's no record but I just dropped it off 10 minutes ago.